Sometimes you think you’ve got it all figured out. I thought I would move to New Zealand before the end of the year. But I’m not going. Because I can’t. I can’t because I’m not done in the US when I leave in 2 weeks for Europe to give talks.

As I wrote earlier collecting beautiful moments here is not only nice and fun, it’s necessary. While I meet great people on a personal level, the bigger picture isn’t bright. There’s a lot of tension between groups and in general people don’t trust people they don’t know. In this hostile dynamic it’s important to see each other as humans. And that’s where positive stories help. To tell what drives us. What makes us happy. How good people are. So we can connect and learn to trust each other.

. Here I can truly make a difference. The US is the place where I can have the most impact. And that’s why I need to be here, especially around election time.

This doesn’t mean it was an easy decision to spend much more time in this country.  After three years of living out of a backpack I long for having a home. For being at one place for a while and taking my place in a local community and contributing to that.  That place would be Christchurch.  A city with many like minded people creating a wonderful city. A city where I feel home.

Deciding to be in the States felt like giving that up. And might even have the danger of following my passion and being so absorbed by that I don’t take well enough care of myself. While I was worrying about this a dear friend asked me about my favorite city in the US. As I type my answer I realize all the amazing friends I met. And while the States as a country doesn’t feel like home, I’ve got homes here. So I’ll be all right. This path will give me more opportunities to grow and make the world a better place.

I’ll come back to the States and nothing is clear yet.  But what I would love to do is to make a documentary. About the tensions and how this relates to someones personal happiness. How does this influence the beautiful moments? To show it’s possible to trust a stranger and it’s worth to hear their stories.

So another big plan and again I’m at the start not knowing how to do it. However I’m convinced this will make a difference and it’s possible. So please point me into any direction, ideas or people who can help.